To my friends (and family) who don’t have fibromyalgia.

Hey, Thanks for being you, for listening, watching, reading and learning about my condition whilst riding this wave with me. I know it’s been years now. I know it ‘gets old’ boring even, to hear me talk about it ALL. THE. TIME. Part of me is sorry, though I’m not sure I’ll ever stop, becauseContinue reading “To my friends (and family) who don’t have fibromyalgia.”

A letter to myself.

I wrote this because I had to make sense of my thoughts as mother and an expectant one, one who is trying to find the strength to be both whilst battling the demons that are chronic illness and mental health. Reach out they said, so you did, and it didn’t immediately help, and when itContinue reading “A letter to myself.”

Therapy is not just for picking up broken pieces

A couple of weeks ago I had some news that really turned my world upside down a bit. I haven’t talked about it much because there is so much other stuff going on, but it’s been a struggle managing my emotions. I felt myself spiralling a bit, like I do every so often, usually whenContinue reading “Therapy is not just for picking up broken pieces”

To the you that feels too much.

Some days if not many, I feel like life is too much for me. Too problematic Too demanding Too stressful Too hard Too expensive  Too ominous So I had a think about how I can break it down, because in all honesty I am all too often feeling as though I am one meltdown awayContinue reading “To the you that feels too much.”

Here we go again, sertraline.

When I recorded last months #PMDD diary I mentioned I’d started taking antidepressants again, but only during the luteal phase of my cycle. Unfortunately my symptoms have not improved greatly in the months since I decided I didn’t want to be here anymore (again). When I say not improved, what I mean is not enoughContinue reading “Here we go again, sertraline.”

Three things

I was having a little rest from socials wasn’t I? But the truth is I often feel so much relief when I express how I feel here, insta or on my blog, that it’s become a compulsion to just get it out of my head. This is me. Straight up. No bullshit. Being my trueContinue reading “Three things”

Tired and Needy – the follow up to Love For Lockdown.

I wrote a post a little over a week ago about my love for lockdown. I still love lots about it, like the family bubble and not having to worry about the outside world. In fact I still love it—full stop! Buuuuuut, I’m also losing my shit a bit. I’m still worrying about stuff thatContinue reading “Tired and Needy – the follow up to Love For Lockdown.”

Love For Lockdown

People keep saying things to me like ‘can’t wait to go out when is over’ as if it’s expected that we are all super excited about socialising again. We must surely all be desperate to get to that overcrowded bar with friends we’ve been avoiding for ages? No, I’m kidding – normalcy is an excitingContinue reading “Love For Lockdown”

Just another chronic illness blog

When I got diagnosed with a chronic illness I didn’t get the same quota that you get when you’re told you have pneumonia or you break your leg. I didn’t get ‘get well soon’ cards or flowers – which I guess is a good thing as get well soon doesn’t really exist in the chronicallyContinue reading “Just another chronic illness blog”

Forgetting your illness

Things are good, you’ve had low impacting symptoms for a while and you’re starting to remember your pre-diagnosis life. Surviving quite happily on a steady dose of painkillers and enjoying the festive fun. Not so fast pal! Cue a poorly child you’re responsible for nursing back to good health, a weather change, or maybe anContinue reading “Forgetting your illness”