A lot of noise

I make a lot of noise. I do. I talk (or rather write) honestly about my struggles in the hope it helps someone. Not just someone going through the same but maybe also someone trying to better understand a loved one. A lot of the time my honesty is met with kindness and I amContinue reading “A lot of noise”

Therapy is not just for picking up broken pieces

A couple of weeks ago I had some news that really turned my world upside down a bit. I haven’t talked about it much because there is so much other stuff going on, but it’s been a struggle managing my emotions. I felt myself spiralling a bit, like I do every so often, usually whenContinue reading “Therapy is not just for picking up broken pieces”

To the you that feels too much.

Some days if not many, I feel like life is too much for me. Too problematic Too demanding Too stressful Too hard Too expensive  Too ominous So I had a think about how I can break it down, because in all honesty I am all too often feeling as though I am one meltdown awayContinue reading “To the you that feels too much.”

Here we go again, sertraline.

When I recorded last months #PMDD diary I mentioned I’d started taking antidepressants again, but only during the luteal phase of my cycle. Unfortunately my symptoms have not improved greatly in the months since I decided I didn’t want to be here anymore (again). When I say not improved, what I mean is not enoughContinue reading “Here we go again, sertraline.”

Three things

I was having a little rest from socials wasn’t I? But the truth is I often feel so much relief when I express how I feel here, insta or on my blog, that it’s become a compulsion to just get it out of my head. This is me. Straight up. No bullshit. Being my trueContinue reading “Three things”

Acute Anxiety.

I can’t tell you why I’ve been feeling anxious lately, not really. I could guess a few contributing factors but I don’t know why it feels so bad, or why when I’m led in bed at night things I did 15 years ago pop into my head and I can’t get them out. Or theContinue reading “Acute Anxiety.”

Tired and Needy – the follow up to Love For Lockdown.

I wrote a post a little over a week ago about my love for lockdown. I still love lots about it, like the family bubble and not having to worry about the outside world. In fact I still love it—full stop! Buuuuuut, I’m also losing my shit a bit. I’m still worrying about stuff thatContinue reading “Tired and Needy – the follow up to Love For Lockdown.”

To the husband who’s wife has PMDD

To the husband whose wife has PMDD. I know it’s not your fault. I know you didn’t mean to bring home the wrong milk. I know you didn’t climb inside my fallopian tubes and set my ovaries on fire. I know you’ve had a long day at work and the last thing you want toContinue reading “To the husband who’s wife has PMDD”

A Decade Of Lessons

The last 10 years Well, it’s been a testing decade that’s for sure, but it’s also been the most amazing pilgrimage of self discovery I’ve ever been on. I feel like the last decade is where I really became an adult and anything before was part of my youth. In 2010 I was glassed inContinue reading “A Decade Of Lessons”

Do you know Carol?

If anyone’s ever referred to you as a nutter, a drama queen or an attention seeker because you opened up about your mental health, then you may have some things in common with Carol. There’s a fine line between getting a pat on the back for opening up and being called an attention seeker forContinue reading “Do you know Carol?”