Huffing spectacularly in a bid for attention, my five year old turns up the volume on whichever device she’s glued to, whilst readjusting her headphones. Meanwhile the baby, who has just turned two months old, screams as though someone is pouring boiling water on his fluffy brown head (I can confirm this was definitely notContinue reading “Reasons not to have a second kid….”
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54 Days postpartum
23.08.21 My daughter was on her way to bed last night when out of nowhere panic hit me full force. My son, lying in the crook of my arm, suddenly started to spit milk out from the sides of his slow flow teat, and I realised, the hand that was holding his bottle was shaking.Continue reading “54 Days postpartum”
Life after secondary Symphis Pubis Dysfunction.
For those of you that follow my blog you’ll know that for the last 7 months I’ve been using crutches and a mobility scooter because for the second time in my lifetime I developed Symphis Pubis Dysfunction during pregnancy, rendering me unable to walk unaided. Symphysis pubis dysfunction (SPD) is a condition that causes excessiveContinue reading “Life after secondary Symphis Pubis Dysfunction.”
Perinatal anxiety and me
I’ve written a lot about this in the past, in my first pregnancy it became crippling and really took over my everyday. This time round I’ve had so many physical complications that although this doesn’t help anxiety, it’s actually been a distraction in lots of ways from worrying about all the other stuff that flitsContinue reading “Perinatal anxiety and me”
36 weeks of growing you.
This might be my last ‘growing you post’ because in a day or two we will know (hopefully) when you’ll arrive and how. I am excited, terrified, anxious, and desperate for you to be here with us, healthy and safe in my arms. We made it this far and we fought back hard, and whenContinue reading “36 weeks of growing you.”
35 weeks of growing you
It was going much better until your dad and I went out the weekend and it threw me into a flare up. Again. We were only out for 2 hours. So whilst Saturday was a good day Sunday was not. You know that sleep is evading me, I know you know, because you’re awake withContinue reading “35 weeks of growing you”
34 weeks of growing you
Well what can I say, the change in me has been so good this week. Though it’s not remained plain sailing on the medical front. Last week I was called several times by the consultant and I felt reassured re the likelihood of a cesarian. Because of my fibromyalgia I don’t recover well from, wellContinue reading “34 weeks of growing you”
33 weeks of growing you
17 weeks of not being able to walk, using a makeshift commode for the many wee stops I need in between the kitchen and the lounge, but not being able to make it up the stairs. Weeks in bed, watching the room spin and change only with the fall of day and night, has beenContinue reading “33 weeks of growing you”
What does family mean to me?
It’s no secret that I was abandoned by the man who fathered me, whilst I was still a tiny mass of cells in the womb. When my mum gave birth at 28 weeks with me weighing just 2lb 10oz, she did it alone. My father has at least 3 other children, two he had withContinue reading “What does family mean to me?”
32 weeks of growing you
TW: Perinatal anxiety & depressive thoughts. Too many tears. Too many days in bed. I’m done now. I have nothing left. Except I’m not allowed to be done, because there is more time left, there is more to do, there are more weeks you must stay inside of me to keep you safe, and despiteContinue reading “32 weeks of growing you”
