New Year, New Me

Are you ready for the influx of ‘new year, new me’ posts on social media?

Are you a hater instead of a goal chaser?

A realist rather than a dreamer?

I used to think I was a realist, but I’ve come to learn lately I rather like being a dreamer. Why shouldn’t I believe for the 20th time that this year I am actually going to lose the weight?

Why shouldn’t I be dead set on spending some more time on self care?

Why shouldn’t I convince myself I am going to be a better friend and make more effort with people in 2019. Why. Shouldn’t. I.?

I don’t tell myself ‘shut up Steph, you know you won’t change’ because if I start saying that, I’ll believe it, and if I believe it, I have zero hope. I need hope to survive and so do you! I need to hope that one day I’ll be able to afford to give my family the life they deserve. I need to hope that one day there’ll be a cure for Fibromyalgia and I’ll no longer have to survive in the prison that is my body. I need to hope that soon I’ll be strong enough to live without medication so Shaun and I can try for another baby. I. Need. Hope.

And whilst I may be saying this all over again at the end of 2019, what does it matter, if it helped me start off the year right? Next year maybe I really will go on a diet. Or maybe I really will get my dream job. Maybe I really will be able to survive without medication.

Maybe – just maybe 2019 will be my year. Or yours. Or Sally’s at number 45.

Is the reason we roll our eyes when people post ‘New Year’ status updates and goals, really because we haven’t succeeded in achieving our own goals?

I think there’s a good chance that’s part of it, in my case anyway. Because of this, my ‘New year, New me’ resolution is definitely going to involve stopping comparing myself to others, especially those on the internet. When you write a blog your following is a huge part of whether or not your blog is successful, but it doesn’t have to define your life. I’ve always sought validation in some form or other, so for me the new year is going to be about validating myself, because I actually do quite like me. I just need to tell her more often.

Whatever your New Years ressie is, I hope you’re successful. If you don’t have one, that’s ok too. If you’re content as you are I’m genuinely happy for you! And on that note I’m starting early and wishing you all a Happy, Healthy, Wealthy, 2019!